Counseling/nails & errands! Day 89
Oct 9, 2018
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ybJ_IhgPvXc

this is my story and welcome to it good
morning everybody welcome to Monday I am
actually running behind this morning so
counseling appointment is at 10:00 and
it's like 9:45 but it's all right I'm
gonna still stop and get me my drink
because that's what I am trying to get
my vlog uploaded for yesterday I should
really stop at a stop sign
also I'm eating on the go Oh
stops me from eating fast food though so
I always like that
come on lady across the street um
anyways so I am trying to get my video
uploaded from yesterday
which I might be a little bit behind
just because last night I went to
Walmart and I was literally out for like
three hours no joke grocery shopping
just grocery shopping you guys grocery
shopping which is great and great and
wonderful cuz I needed a break but at
the same time by the time I got home we
were like scrambling for time like I was
shoving dinner which I didn't even get
to show you but I kind of showed you the
cowbell no I didn't because I didn't let
my shopping on so
last night for dinner I had my heavy
dinner
which was
Kosmos mac and cheese and their
rotisserie chicken I had just a little
bit of the macro cheese I didn't really
have a lot I don't know it wasn't really
falling on my tongue very well
but I was really hungry so I did eat but
the rest of this week I'm
really gonna hippie min do what needs to
be done so that I can see good things
because I want to see good good numbers
drop this week I told Olli that I want
to for sure do working out more this
week because the last couple weeks I've
kind of
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failed on
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no excuse other than just a me being
lazy and not doing what she needs to do
but Amy's gonna get back in here
and I'm gonna start working out so with
that all said try to shove this down as
quick as possible usually don't eat this
fast but with that said I'm going to
definitely be pursuing working out
because it definitely makes me feel good
after I do it and then also it just I
know that that plays a big role in with
my numbers on the scale like I mean
movements obviously going to create you
to lose weight so clearly I know what I
want to do which is work out sorry
we're eating and going together so that
was just one package of oatmeal it's
what I always eat and it's a hundred and
thirty calories so anyways I think today
I'm gonna do my nails I'm really excited
so
I will definitely show you guys what I
have in store
for that I need to go to the post office
today and get biker babes wreath out I
was going to do it this weekend but it
just seemed like this weekend we
literally were playing like serious on
the go with Joe all weekend long like
literally go ahead buddy go go okay or
not
how we be able to go and then they just
don't go please don't be busy because
only have ten madman there's not anybody
even here I like a lot I like like that
morning
good good I'm gonna do the $2 special
today I think can I get that sugar-free
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I'm drinking an extra cup top extra cup
sorry
you guys have a wonderful day you too
bye-bye
so this is a mocha I don't know I'm
hoping to God that I'm gonna like it
because it's not bad still like my white
chocolate better but bad
I literally have five minutes five
minutes you guys to get to a place that
I'm about two minutes away from but
every time you're in rush like every car
will jump in front of you had then it's
like you hit every red light possible
that's just my luck that's just that's
how I work
do this I know I have to really make
sure that I park right because I won't
eat today
and I really don't want to come out with
my car towed that would be that would
really be very traumatic if I came out
and my car was gone I was like literally
probably call Kali and be like damn I'm
carless what are you talking about honey
nothing car's right there boo-boo where
did I get that from does anybody know
where I got that from hey booboo if you
know put it in the comments below
anyways and then excuse me we need to
start working on our next giveaway you
guys I need to start getting I need to
get names emailed to me if you want to
be put in the drawing for the full
wreath so let me know ASAP because
that's anyways I just need everybody's
names emailed in so that way I can start
writing them down and then the draw I'm
gonna go ahead and do the drawing like
the I'm not gonna give you guys a date
exactly just yeah I'm still trying to
figure that out so but I will definitely
keep you guys posted on sorry I'm in a
hurry
anyways I will keep you guys posted on
the date the date
all right well I don't know how in the
world I am to get out of my car to park
in this little spot this is like not
very friendly
we are going to have to straight back
people people people I swear they don't
wanna drive
well I am so sorry for the person
parking next to me I literally have like
no room to get out and they don't have
no room to get in so I hope there are a
skinny person because they or anything
like me we're gonna have some problems
anyways okay you guys I am off to go
into counseling but I will check it with
you guys when I get out you guys so we
just brought Ollie back to if you can
see a little bit of the cars behind me I
brought him back to a place where we
pick up cars and stuff from so we are
doing that and now I'm gonna head back
towards the yard because we'll I'll pick
him up from there and on our way I'm
going to get my baby base but anyways I
just want to check in with you guys
because I didn't get to check in with
you after counseling and I just wanted
to share with you guys a little bit
about what happened and it was so good I
am I just I love my counselor I love
every aspect about her me and her have
such the like the best bond and also not
just the bond but like we're so we're so
of the same type of personality that it
mates for messiness so well that it's it
it feels good to be able to talk to
somebody that gets me and understands me
and so anyways we talked a lot about you
know the title mints
what happened over the weekend with
fulmars conversation of what you know he
is or whatever from my mother and I read
her my response basically that I text my
mom which was basically you know I don't
appreciate you saying those things about
my son you know I will excu I will
accept my children for whomever they are
and for whomever they love you know but
that's not something I'm focused on
right now
and so anyways you know but I read her
the text message response back and she
was just like floored at how well I
responded you know and how well I said
my feelings she said you know you used
that sandwich concept which is you get
to the point with respect honoring my
feelings and honoring my son and being
very cautious though saying you know I
understand you probably didn't mean it
to come off the way that you did because
I'm sure she didn't mean it to come off
in a rude or a negative way I'm sure but
it's how I interpreted it because I'm a
human and that's what humans do is
interpret things the way that they hear
it
but it is also you know my job to make
sure that I course on that say hey
probably didn't mean it this way but I'm
gonna come back with I still don't like
the sound of it or I don't like the way
that that came to and you know tell her
I still love her you know and things
like that
a year ago that would have not been my
response a year ago I would have been I
probably flying off with the f-bomb and
telling her don't ever speak to me again
I just cuz that is the way that I
usually would real you know like respond
and I'm not that person anymore I don't
respond that way I mean clearly I ain't
gonna say I don't drop the f-bomb once
Shh but that's I'm human I am human it
happens but you know I am very
precautious with respecting people's
feelings and stuff but I also am very
cautious about respecting my own
feelings and that feels good to me to
know that I can respect myself but also
respect somebody else in the boundary
and so yeah we talked a lot about that
and just how you know when I was younger
I was titled you know I had every type
of title-
everything from I'm really sorry you
guys are going to be bumping because
you're on my phone holder but you know I
was titled you know what I'm gonna say
these words but don't date them
offensively in the sense like this is
what I was told that iOS retarded
I'm slow I'm incompetent I am incapable
I do fans I'm an attempt you and help me
just all of those things are what I was
told when I was never so I was premature
and labeled and you know I always told
myself that him when I hit that I ever
was to have children I would never allow
somebody to like my children because
that's not there that anybody has the
right to label my children with
themselves and so you know she says well
what made you be different like what
caused you to not do those things aren't
to allow those things to happen to your
health and I said because it was it did
happen to me and the unfortunate event
is I listened to those titles so I
didn't pursue the dreams that I wanted
until the things that I desired because
I believed you know the things that were
told of me and you know it even went as
far as the family members tried to get
me to apply for Social Security
disability because I was
and thank God I didn't I mean I'm not
talking about about anybody that gets
Social Security or disability because
it's there for people that need it I
mean I totally go for it but for myself
I don't need it I'm very kind I'm very
capable of working I am capable of
taking care of my life and my children's
lives you know I was told when I was
younger that that I would never make a
good mom that I would never that nobody
would ever trust me to take care of
children of my own but that I am a great
daycare provider
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and you know everything that was said to
me always got tucked away and put in a
suitcase and that to Jesus my memory and
unfortunately sometimes I go into that
Sookie's and I'll unzip it and kind of
look through it that could be kind of
hard you know because you don't think
that you're gonna think about those
things but you do and so yeah it was
pretty difficult to hear those things
like I don't really really I mean come
on I think that my children are
beautifully taken care of I you know I
believe that I'm a very good mom and you
know yeah I believe that I was an
amazing thing to provide her to I think
that I held my business very well while
I was in business and you know I do
everything with a hundred percent I
that's what I feel or it doesn't mean
I'm gonna always
100% but I always tried that's Michael
and so yeah I just goodness I you know
thinking back and again you know Harmons
a banana suit music been thinking about
those titles that were won't be or the
rumors that were started of me and I be
talented that that's gonna happen to my
kids because that's no no no no no so I
kept that one right in the tail and I
have yet to you know specifically talk
to her more about it other and then you
know what was said at that time right X
but you know if it comes up in
conversation I definitely will address
my children you know anything they want
in life and I will never ever ever ever
let anybody sell them short because my
children are so capable of
I just what not him
and I'm not okay with so anyways it was
a really good session it really really
really was and so I go home and change
the kids and then we laugh
I dropped a Leon
the lots now he's picking up a vehicle
we'll be back at the yard is really
really nasty to pay for anyways so
yeah it's pretty nasty but it's all good
it's working so anyways a bit because
they're having a wonderful start here as
Monday mornings as well and I am so
sorry that yesterday was such a short I
thought it would be a lot longer but I
guess not I'm sorry but I thought that
you know what I mean only said well
there's Daisy beware you'll have more
than others and that's what means you
know it's whatever is going on in that
day that's true you know so anyways I
just want to check in with you guys let
me see if I can show you guys I just
wanted to show you look at this view
this is the clouds like it's um so what
foggy like it's weird fog but it's
because we are getting them higher
elevation because we're getting back to
west salem's so that I can pick up my
baby from school but let's see if I can
I have to be careful but look at that
it's so pretty I love it
but I thought I would share that with
you guys for just a quick second show
you the view Hey so we are actually just
getting home a little bit ago and I
thought I would bring you guys along and
do something for my nails I haven't done
my nails him quite a while I've been
really leaving him alone just for the
fact base that they needed a lot of time
to breathe sorry
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my buffer but it's okay anyways so I was
like what can I do like I want to do my
nails really bad and you know so I
thought you know what I've been wanting
to do these and I've heard a lot of good
things about him so that makes me even
more wanting to do them so I figured I
would just try it and see what happens
and then go from there but I'm gonna
show you guys what I'm doing I bought
fir but I guess not
anyways I purchase it's called the
coconut nail art brand I got it from
Walmart that's gonna be too bright I got
it's called sweet style since these ones
they've got like little sparkles on them
they're so so pretty I am like so
excited - ah - get him on so anyways I'm
gonna go ahead and do them I pretty much
already know how to do them due to the
fact that they are identical to the
color street like literally identical in
the sense that the applying now I don't
know
I don't know how the how they're gonna
hold up I really don't know that we're
gonna have to find out together but it's
never too late of a time to find out how
these go so was showing our fan favorite
French manicure nail polish are now
available at Walmart they've got like a
glitter kind and then the regular French
manicure type but yeah see see these
better know that I turn the light down a
little bit I just excited so anyways
let's get to going so first things first
so first things first you're gonna have
to clip your original notes okay I'm
gonna turn this around because that way
I can actually see what I'm doing and my
nails are super long right now like I it
must be just like a thing in my body or
something that literally I never used to
be able to have long nails like my nails
would take ages ages to grow and it
would get so frustrating that eventually
I would literally bite him off and I did
that for a long time because it would
take super long for my nails to grow out
but now all of a sudden I hit 37 and I
tell ya my nails grow like weeds like I
cut them and I can literally cannot keep
up with how fast they're growing so it's
like woohoo then I'm just gonna push
back my cuticles
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okay so I got my nails clipped and they
are ready for me to apply the nose and
I'm actually going to apply a tip today
I normally have not been but today I
daddy's what he was gonna do today
any poem to finger
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I just hope that that's
pointy fingers now these are not made to
be wide so if you're wanting wide nails
these are not the tips that you're going
to want to use because these go straight
in
what do you have to do is you how to
make sure that your cuticles are pushed
though so if they're not
no kiddos are little cranky today I
think they just don't we were in the car
for so long today with running back and
forth that they're just like yep we've
had enough you guys have done on we're
going home whether you guys planned it
or not and it's so funny because all he
made the comment today he's like who
wears the pants in this household or no
he said who's who's the parents here I
was like well honey I think your kids
have let you know who's the parents then
but you know no we don't let our kids
get away with things we you know we
parent them but you know what anybody
that's had fertility issues will
understand when I say you pray so hard
for these babies that you really will do
anything anything in the world for them
and yeah our kids get annoying our kids
get
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but I would never trade so I did finish
my nails I didn't end up videoing all of
it
because you guys have seen a majority of
the stuff done like multiple times here
on my channel so I figure it is probably
something you guys probably don't want
to have to continue to keep seeing so I
went ahead and just did them myself but
I am definitely going to show you guys
what they look like I messed up on that
one I tore it on accident but I mean you
can kind of see it but it's okay
it's it's okay it's not bad but yeah I
was like don't I do I know I do them but
they really turned out cute so I am very
excited I am very happy with the brand
and I will definitely do these again
hands down like I said before you don't
have to do you don't have to do
artificial nails I just did artificial
nails because I haven't done artificial
nails in a long time and I was just
really missing them so I did artificial
nails for myself but you don't have to
you can just kind of do whatever you
really want you can do them on your
regular nails or whatever but trying to
clean up the mess I don't want this
stuff getting stuck on my I don't know
if it will stick to my stuff but anyways
really quick so that is the company it's
called coconut no art it's a hundred
percent doubles and you can smell it's a
hundred percent nail polish like there
is no if ands or buts about it
so I am really really really happy with
them I really am and like even my nails
itself they're not they're not too long
they feel really good
so I'm excited to change something I
haven't had for a while and so anyways
but for the rest I'm just gonna check in
with you guys for my night cuz I'm gonna
go and take a shower here in just a
little bit mine went really good really
really good it was very very busy though
to say the least it was very busy but
you know nothing nothing out of the
ordinary it was just really busy but um
that was the only one that was left
because I messed up today she should
have came with two left over but I I
didn't do it that way or I did I ended
up having to use one of the other ones
for my thumbnail so that's why they look
the way they do anyways so yeah if you
want to go to the store and buy these
it's just a coconut brand they've got
multiple different kinds if I can insert
pictures I will of different ones of
this brand
you
kind of see but I I really am happy with
this brand I really really am anyways
but yeah back to today's so we just had
a really busy day driving back and forth
picking up cars and doing all of that
but it just it was nice I mean the
weather was it worked pretty good in our
favor which is always a nice thing so we
were able to get what we needed and then
we came home and I literally have been
just sitting in my room doing stuff I
need to get done and things like that
but yeah I definitely definitely am
tired so I am very happy that we are
home kids were getting a little bit on
the bunker side in the car they were
like okay we're done so it was like
perfect timing for us to call it a day
and be able to come home and get the
rest of our evening started and stuff
and like I said I'm going to take a
shower here in just a little bit and
that way then I can rest the rest of the
night I was trying to they don't some of
these you have to go in because kind of
the same thing with the aspect of all
Nell sticker art stuff you have to file
off the access or it will catch so
that's what I'm doing right now is just
taking that off and then another thing
is is I am starting an Etsy shop I am
very excited to announce that it is
definitely going to keep me busy but I
could not be more excited about it all
I'm going to be selling my like a lot of
I di wise my my wreaths and lots of
stuff I'm going to be selling this
I am extremely excited to be able to
bring that for you everybody I have
quite a few people already very very
interested so that makes me excited too
that I already have people wanting to
like order and stuff and that's like
must be doing something night if people
want to order so yeah that's really
pretty much it I just today was like I
said a pretty busy day out in the car
and then just running errands doing what
needs to be done around here but um
tomorrow is definitely gonna be more of
a let's see tomorrow I have Jeremiah has
picture date tomorrow
oh that reminds me I don't even have
this lip together anyways um so he has
picture day tomorrow I have physical
therapy tomorrow or no I thought I had
physical therapy tomorrow but I guess
it's not until the 15th but what was
weird is that the physical therapists
place called me today to verify so I'm
like okay I don't know clearly what is
going on but we'll figure that part out
um but anyways yeah it was just it was a
very busy day tomorrow is gonna be I
think kind of probably a little busy too
so we'll see how that all works but
anyways that was really my day I
apologize Oh about the vlog yesterday
yesterday's vlog really did it kind of
sucked a little bit um but it was just
the way that my day went yesterday and
it just seemed like everything I was
trying to do was just not getting not
getting accomplished
so anyways tomorrow I think is gonna be
a pretty even steven day if we have any
running around to do we'll do that I
think tonight I'm planning to do a
ask I think I'm gonna do the pink guava
pill off so I could not be smelling that
from their clean and dry your face empty
and tears apply thick layer on to the
skin oh so this isn't wait a minute
easy pill mask oh so these are huh it
looks like there's something leaking but
it's not that's why I was smelling it
because it smells like something leaking
but it's not coming from here so I don't
know but maybe I'll go ahead and maybe
I'll do this one just in case it's open
I don't know that's weird but yeah so I
think I'm gonna do this one tonight
it's a hydrated cactus and cloudberry
water gel mask all skin types intensely
refreshes and brightens for noir skin
leave on leave on masks quench thirsty
skin with this water gel maza intensely
hydrates for smooth radiant complexion
pumping and juicy directions apply to
clean face and neck avoiding contact
with eyes and hairline leave on for
optimal results and rinse off with warm
water after 10 minutes used twice per
week or as often as needed so I think we
might do this one tonight but we'll see
just depends if I get a chance because I
really need to go to
shower and just get my regular nightly
routine started and get my kids ready
for bed too so anyways I am gonna close
here I really have no idea how much time
I have today again like I said before
it's a little bit crazy but it is what
it is like I you know I'm doing the best
I can you guys I am so so sorry that it
seems like sometimes my vlogs are
shorter than others and I just think
that it's just the ability of time that
I have to be able to put out so anyways
with the HUD said I hope you guys
enjoyed my vlog today and I will check
in with you guys again bright shiny
tomorrow morning first thing
until then sweet dreams talk to you
later bye bye
